My life is a tangled doll hair kind of mess. Oh my gosh. I've got work, which drains me of all energy by the time I get home, church, finishing Landlocked, commissions, personal projects, and other writing projects. None of these things have immediate gratification results, so I'm stuck in a mire of stress and impatience, waiting to see what pans out and putting off things in fear of failure.
The worse thing is, I've already considered all the advice people could give me, so I feel like there is no way out.
Not to say my life is miserable. Not going as planned, definitely, but not miserable. I like my job, I like the new ideas I've been having, and I'm looking forward to taking some art classes in the spring to help with my portfolio for CalArts.
The main problem with me is I half-do things and procrastinate to avoid failing. I also don't take care of myself, which explains the getting tired easily thing. I also suck at time management.
Man, this is getting to be a downer. Sorry. Oh, here's something I wanna do now! I want to be a foster parent. Obviously this is a few years in the making, since I'm still living at home, but working with foster kids makes me want to give these kids a safe place where they will be loved. I haven't felt so right about something for a long time, and I can't wait to get started (again, not for a while, but it's nice to finally have some direction in my life). I always thought I was going to adopt, and I probably still will, but I feel that God is calling me to this, and that makes me UBER excited.
As always, working on Landlocked, as well as some other little fun things I'll be sharing with you all! Thank you for reading, and God bless!I can only update deviantart when I have access to someone else's computer, but I can communicate and update on tumblr, facebook, and twitter. Please follow or watch or whatever the vernacular is.TumblrfacebookTwitter